Images

To Fly Or Not

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Life

Losing A Mother

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Mishappening with a friend somehow forced me to revisit that void in my life, which can never be filled now. Made me question a lot of things. Most of them were questioning my behavior of that time. It made me realize how out of the moment I was. As if it wasn’t sink in to me till everything was way over. Did I handled it properly? Did I coped with it or am I still struggling with it?

There is not a single answer. Just more questions. More I question myself, the more complicated all these emotions get. I just think of one thing – Is it hard or easy for adults to cope with their Mother’s death? Does it become easier with age?

With earthquake in Nepal, so many small kids have lost their parents. Thinking of them who may never know what a mother’s love is anyway, makes my heart sink. A child who didn’t get to know about his mother, may never know what does it feel like to sleep in the warmth of his mother’s lap; or how a simple daal-chawal cooked by your mother tastes heavenly; or when you are sick and just a small touch of her on your forehead can relieve you of any pain; or that she is the only one who runs after you in the morning just so you can grab a bite before running towards your school bus. It will be a misfortune to never know any of this. Or, maybe a blessing because you will never know what you missed.

But, wouldn’t it will be a bigger misfortune when you experience all these things and then one dreadful day, you lose it. Everything. Suddenly warmth is gone from the sun. What remains are the cold shuddering dark nights.

You are adult, married, have kids, perhaps… you must be strong enough to handle this. You are not supposed to cry. Not supposed to say how you feel about it. Not supposed to express yourself, which is actually sometimes screaming your lungs out at midnight, just because your void is getting bigger each day instead of healing with time.

Whether you are a child, a kid, a teenager, an adult or even an elderly, the truth is that every time you are in pain, first person that you think about is your Mother.

Whenever you want to cry out, it is a Mother’s lap that you crave for. It doesn’t matter how old you are.

It just doesn’t matter what your age is, when your loss is this big.

There is no moving forward. There is no coping. There is no healing from this.

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Movies

Gabbar Is Back

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So, I watched two Hindi movies this past weekend, after a long time, ‘Gabbar Is Back‘, and ‘Byomkesh Bakshi‘; and even I couldn’t believe myself in saying that only ‘Bakshi…’ was a disappointment.

Major reason for this is that I had very high hopes from ‘Byomkesh Bakshi’, considering the TV series was and still is, one of my favorite.

And, why I was not at all disappointed by ‘Gabbar’ has more to do with the fact that it was as full of s%#t as I was expecting it to be.

See glass is always full.

Today, I will not talk about ‘Byomkesh Bakshi’ though. You know just because it will pain me to write down what went wrong. So leaving it behind, let’s talk about Mr. Gabbar.

‘Gabbar Is Back‘, is directed by Krish and produced by Sanjay Leela Bhansali. This is a remake of Tamil film ‘Ramanna’.

Akshay Kumar is Gabbar, who is supported by Shruti Hassan, Sunil Grover, Suman Talwar and gorgeous Kareena in a cameo. Well, all the stars appears to be in a cameo considering every bit and every frame is focused on Akshay. This is so much happening with all the big stars films now that you no longer even remember the names of other stars.

Story? There is no story as such. To sum it up in one line – Gabbar is modern Bhagat Singh with a twist that he prefers to kill others (many others) before sacrificing himself for good of the nation.

He is a crusader on a mission of anti-corruption, and his screen-name (Sorry too much of online gaming…. but you get the point, right?? ) is Gabbar. To clear the air, why he calls himself Gabbar is not even explained logically. So, in reality, he is a college professor who teaches his students to become honest and idealistic nationals.

This is all in all an Akshay Kumar’s film and every frame of it will remind you of his ‘Khiladi’ time action sequences. It is a treat to watch Akshay back in his Khiladi avatar but this is also the problem with this movie. Now, when all the big stars are doing action movies with high-class 3-d action sequences, Gabbar falls short of technology and that Jaw dropping action moment. All that this movie lacked was actually – Rohit Shetty.

A special mention to Chitrangada Singh for rocking ‘Aao raja’. Babe, you look sensual, but you deserve much more than this.

My husband loved it and I hated it but still it was a good time-pass with popcorn. ‘Bakshi Ji’ if you are listening…. don’t make me write about Gabbar.

I don’t need to wait for a film’s release to donate for Nepal: Akshay Kumar(ibnlive.in.com)
Line between right and wrong(thehindu.com)

Sketch

Happy Mother’s Day – for those of us whose Mothers are now Angels

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Sketch by Jyoti Singh — Happy Mother’s Day – for those of us whose Mothers are now Angels

Kids and Me

What Big Boys Do?

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If you are wondering where I was for such a long time…. no posts… nothing. Then I have my reasons. Pretty valid reasons.

My In-Laws were here and that just pretty much sums it up. So, I was doing nothing and still I was busy all the time. Like my husband use to say “Busy without Business”. But now I am hoping that I would break this dry spell of mine and would post more regularly.

So, coming back to this post “What big boys do”, this is a small conversation with my 3-year-old don Otu.

You never know what silly thing you will hear from your toddlers. Most of the time they will surprise you with something intelligent or something so simple that you wonder how do they think in this way.

Otu my three-year old son, is one of the twin boy. Other twin boy Renne is complete opposite of him.

Otu is very observant. He notices everything and has a very curious mind. He is always asking questions and he gives his own explanations too.

He thinks he is a big boy, just because Renne is somewhat one minute younger to him. So, he always says, “I am a big boy and Renne is small baby”.

He wants to be treated like one too.

So, just yesterday, when I was busy watching Netflix (as usual) and he was bothering me with his list of questions (as usual). Just to send him away I said to him, “Why are you not playing? Look Tisha and Renne are playing in play room”.

“You should also go and play in your play room”.

Otu replied back, “No”. “I will not play in play room. Big boys don’t play with toys”.

Enough to throw me off. I was hesitant to ask him further about, what big boys play with, but can’t keep my mouth shut. So, I asked him.

Believe me I was waiting for something funny or shocking, but his reply was way simpler than I have imagined.

I asked him, if big boys don’t play with toys, then what do they actually do?

Otu with his serious look on his face (a look which says you know nothing mamma), said – “Big boy brush their teeth, they sit on couch and then they talk. They just talk. They don’t play, mamma.”

How simple?